why is it that i complain and complain, but in an instant things are wonderful once again. how are such mood swings possible. i shouldnt be this happy. i should be sad. hes gone, i've pushed away the others. But then you come along. and you make me happy. i forget everything else. but now you are not here. and i miss you. i am obsessed with you. too much for my own good. i want you, i cant have you. i need you, i will not get you. you tease me. but i like it. my heart skips a beat thinking of that night. it might not have meant anything to you, but it did to me. i want to thank you, even if you were just teasing me, i wanted that. i needed that. and now that i have it, i want more. i should be sad right now, cuz things are headed downhill, but you gave me that memory. that memory that i really really really hold precious.